General Conference

Henry B
* there is joy for the faithful
Dallin H Oaks
*God is a jealous God and he rewards those who follow him
* it in not that we have other priorities its where is our main priority
*Gods commandments are based on the great plan of happiness
* if we don't make our priorities with Gods, we are in danger of following other Gods
*Marriage is part of Gods plan and a special duty
Bonnie L. Oscerson 
*The choices we make in our daily life is the path we go down later
* if we are not strong now in the church its about time
*if any man will do his will he shall know the doctrine
*the lord expects us to live with faith
*If we don't live the laws then we will never get a testimony of it
* faith is things that are HOPED for and not SEEN
* we must do the work first, then we receive the conformation that it is true
* conversion takes place when
1. saying prayers
2. going to church
3. paying
4. straightening others
* a person who has true convert ion draws on others to do better
*as we put in the work we will become converted
Richard J. Maynes
* the spiritual strength we have will help us with all the challenges we have in life
* the challenges we face, if we endure it well will be for our good and God shall reward us
* God knows we won't make the right choice all of the time but he has given us help if we only seek it
* if we honestly repent the atonement will help us to be clean and have the light of Christ
* We must "endure" to have eternal life
*  spiritual insurance comes at a price. your testimonies needs to be in shape ti be strong.
1. study and learn teaching of Christ
2. do out very best to live them
*You must become the rock the river can not wash away 
* let us lay aside every weight, and let us run the race that is set before us.
*we are here on earth to run the race, to choose right from wrong and use our free agency 
*  at the end of the race you can be satisfied that you have done all you can 
Richard G. Scott
* only though the atonement of Jesus Christ can we be forgiven
* the lord sees weaknesses difference then he sees rebelling
*when the lord deals with weaknesses it is always with mercy
*repentance is not punishment, it is a hope filled path to a better future 
*Make the spiritual rebelling of your children, spouse a very high priority 
Thomas S. Monson 
* when the pathway of life takes a turn we tend to ask "why me" we feel alone, heartbroken. some falter some finish. but man is born unto trouble. but we were not born to bare it alone
*let us remember that others have felt the same way and we are never alone
* we only move on when we make the Gospel of Jesus Christ the center of our lives 
* from the bed of pain and from the pillow of tears we are lifted when we turn to him
*sadness and suffering are universal
* our God knows that we get stronger, learn and grow when we have trials
* If we didn't have challenges to over come we would remain as we are with little or no progress

i feel as if I'm in kind of a bad place in my life right now.

 no one told me that marriage was supposed to be like this.

 this...hard.

 no one said you would me fighting every night. 

no one mentioned that i would feel so angry all the time. 

no one passed along that i would feel my lowest right when my life is supposed to take off.

no one told me that i would feel like my heart is numb and ripping at the same time.

no one whispered that i would have doubts.

no one called me and said my voice would become dull every time i spoke to him.

no one wrote me and told me i would be sleeping alone.

no one told me i would forget how to smile.

no one said tears would replace laughs.

no one mentioned the fear.

no one passed along that i would feel alone in a marriage of two.

no one told me about the hurt. 

but no one ever told me to give up. 

Is it too much to ask?

Honestly I feel as if i don't ask too much. I don't expect a lot. The bar is not a mile high. And yet...I am the one with the label as "nagging wife"
It has been brought to my attention that cleaning is kin of hard for the small adams family. Im constantly repeating my self over and over again.  " turn off the light, take the trash out, put your stuff away, clean up you mess"Some would say i should probably just make a CD and keep it on repeat.
Its not that i Just love getting after people its just that i feel like if i don't say it 30 times nothing ever gets done. I have come up with a new but costly method to solve my problems and my trash can has never been fuller. My husband may not like his things thrown way with out even a sec on thought but its the only way to get my point across but look  at this face.

And quite frankly I'm sick of my face looking like this all the time. But on a better note. Jeremy is doing very well starting this new restaurant. For you who don't know he's starting a new restaurant called from scratch. Its in down town slc right next to the big wells fargo building. He has started working trying to find workers and servers and he still needs more. There expected to open sometime in september. Its going to be a italian restaurant with deep dish pizzas and its own flour mill. He's super excited to be staring this journey and so am I.

The Flour Mill

 The Building

I love the way you love me

10 things I love about you

1. I love the way you make me feel special

2. I love the way you know every rap song word for word 

3. I love how you know all my favorite things

4. I love how you never gave up on me even when I'm mad and it seems there is no hope of calming me down

5. I love that weird little voice you get when you're talking to animals

6. I love how you always want me to be the best me I can be

7. I love how you but others first before your self

8. I love how successful your becoming with starting a new restaurant 

9. I love how you insist on holding my hand in the car because you say its the best way to say i love you

10. I love you because I love you

Family

Family has always been kind of a sensitive subject to me. No ones family is perfect. No one had that perfect childhood. No one ever really feels like they can be perfect. My family is cracked but not broken. Fixable but not mended. Promising but no promises.
This picture is whole but also unfinished. About a year ago i lost my little sister. She was struggling her whole life and finally she couldn't take like anymore. I will never forget that day. It was almost like the air on my shoulders was to heavy for me to bear. I left like my whole had could go right through my heart because of the hole it left. Im not going to lie and say I'm totally better because I'm not but I'm inching my way along. Anyway i come from a family of 7 kids and we grew up in little alpine utah. Im really into music and the way it makes me feel. So light inside and free.